The environment felt great. People saw me with mixed emotions of envy, joy and, being impressed. It was a woo-hoo moment for me. I was a star.That day I was to get the winning trophy for being the best young writer. One of the volunteers neared me and said, “Wear this hat to distinguish yourself. It’s the hat of achievement.”
I felt uncomfortable. The hat of achievement gave me tremors. The thoughts lingered my mind what if it falls while I go on stage.What of it shakes too much? What if the hanging threads blind my eyes and I trip down the stairs.
I felt a lot of eyes upon me and this made me anxious. I wished it not to be on my head. I communicated my discomfort to other achievers’ around me. They seemed impressed and I could sense their feelings about me wow what a down to earth person! Privileges don’t make him arrogant.
When I felt this, I thought, wow I am humble as I love being normal and simple and do not pride my achievements.
I felt great about myself. But then, I heard the warning sound which I hear when I do something wrong; it’s a blasting sound that wakes my heart and mind together. It signaled me that I am feeling a sense of superiority.
I told my heart and mind, “Hey listen, you wanted to leave the achievement hat for your fears and for looking normal and ordinary. Yet the pride attacked from the other way.”
I felt ashamed and then I ignored the hat and thought as if it doesn’t exist. I felt normal.